+ liquidified + at 6:24 PM Thursday, March 03, 2005

well! for ur information, this layout is done by fernie. yes the seatmate. well seatmate's seatmate actually. that's right. :) actually it's not very me, but it's nice! thanks fernie! :D

anyways. it's been raining these few days and i must say rain is BEAUTIFUL. :D esp aft that terrible terrible heatwave we had. rain smells so good. haha. feels good too. (:

ellen: YEAH i cant wait for the thirteenth too. DISNEY ON ICE. :D ooh. u know the three of us have not gone out for so long! the last time was like my birthday, which is not very long ago actually, but still! :/ oh and the hamster is doing fine! i've got funny stories abt him though, that i have to tell you soon. haha. thanks so much for everything. i miss you and everything of you. it's hard to get tgtr sometimes huh? i mean with our busy lives and all. but! we'll be fine. :)

am currently working on the lit proj with martina, ada, lea, xinhui, weilin. actually the deadline is like next week, plus we have to show our presentation to all the lit classes of the level during the march holidays. wowee. and we're not even half-done yet. okay almost. hmm. :/

let me try to rmb what happened the past few days.

and well obviously i'm failing.

so tata.

+ liquidified + at 5:34 PM Friday, February 25, 2005

investiture today was nice! :)

got my jlpt results. aw man. my heart missed a beat when i saw the envelope with the words "japanese cultural society" (or sthg like that) on my table. i totally forgot abt it! so anyway, results were ok, though i did better last year. ah well. at least i passed. so that's one thing cleared.

stayed back with martina, ada, xinhui today to start on the lit project. doing the big "I" word, the favourite evergreen of literature texts. i.e., I-R-O-N-Y. irony in king of the castle. the whole session was funny haha. weilin stayed for a while at first, then she had to go for her training. hey weilin! u must be preparing for this evening's competition now! LOTS OF LUCK. :D i hope she can sense this thru telepathy or sthg cos there is no way she's gonna read this before her competition. hahah.

oh yeah jen had cheer tryouts today, and she showed us her moves in class when we were doing the lit thing. after much persuasion and cajoling from us, that is. lol. and u know wad? she is a NATURAL. like oh mann! i mean not that i am some expert in cheer or sthg, but gosh she's good lah. the four of us were like wow.

+ liquidified + at 5:05 PM Saturday, February 19, 2005

since a few years ago I've learnt one thing (among many others), that to want sthg too much somehow creates an energy that pushes it away, involuntarily. Sthg like that. like, when u want sthg, and u reallie reallie look fwd to it and think abt it a lot and etc, somehow it wont turn out as good as u want it to, or it'll be a total disappointment, or it just happens in a different way. I dunno how to say it exactly, but it's sthg like that. however, when one holds a neutral or nonchalant disposition, either intentionally or unintentionally, things usually turn out more favourable. And knowing this point, sometimes I manipulate my emotions, in order to get the ending I want. Then again, sometimes I just leave it to God.

ever since last tuesday, the beautiful hamster has been a focal part of my daily life. that's right. :) i feel like a mother, to that little creature. :) and i get paranoid over its welfare so many times. like today i accidentally squashed it or sthg, and omg the little thing SQUEAKED! ok i know it's normal for mice and hamsters to squeak, but i've never heard one up close before, and oh man it totally broke my heart. bcos it was a squeak in pain. ugh. cute-sounding but heartbreaking. i felt like a criminal. gosh. i reallie hope it isnt injured or anyth. the other day it dropped into the cage from quite a height and omg i could've died. argh. argh. and then i worry if i feed it too much, or if that bottle of water actually works, or whether it's sleeping too much, and so on.

this is rather silly. i mean i've had hamsters many many times before this one, but i am still quite bad at taking care of them. :/

oh man i smell haze like everyday. :( and wad i read abt the Kyoto Protocol today in the papers made me feel reallie sad. i mean wad is the world coming to? God made this beautiful place, and here we are destroying it. ok so maybe i sound cliched, but seriously, why izzit that some ppl dont even care?? like hello, do u want us to be completely depleted, extinct, or teethering on the edge of life and death before u realise how serious this whole envt problem is?? i mean, countries like china, india and the usa, who contribute to the majority of the world's carbon emissions, are not even willing to participate in the Kyoto Protocol just bcos it will affect their economy drastically. things are becoming worse by the minute, and ppl just, just DONT CARE. i didnt think of all these overnight u know, it's been kind of bothering me for a while, like a long while.

there was this article some time ago and it said that global warming was swiftly reaching a POINT OF NO RETURN. nice. seriously, can we be abit more caring around here? and there are ppl like my sister who claims that whatever catastrophe that might occur will not happen in her lifetime so why bother anyway. ok so that may have abit of truth in it, but dammit can we stop being so unconcerned? and the effect is not that far off in the future, as opposed to wad alot of us(eg my sister) might think, bcos it is said that the carbon dioxide level high up there may well reach DANGEROUS LEVELS in just a couple of years' time. i mean doesnt that have any effect on you? not even a bit?

how do u think all those typhoons, snowstorms, hurricanes, heat waves in europe, etc came abt? not by coincidence, that's for sure. i'm not talking abt those normal natural disasters that have happened since the dawn of time, i'm talking MASSIVE, and those that occur when they're not supposed to. like it suddenly snows in india where it hardly ever did. and all those extreme temperatures(either soaring high or sinking way below freezing). u think they came abt just like that? and the increase in flood occurrences in some parts of asia over the past few years. u think the sea level just decided to rise by itself? for no reason at all? i mean come on! even an animal would know that things are changing, and definitely not for the better.

i've been musing, that 30 years down the road, there will be no sports that train outdoors, bcos it'll have gotten too hot. and boy do we know whose fault it is.

this reminds me, the other day for lit we did this prose abt life at the end of the twenty first century. it was abt technology taking over human lives and all. (rmb the electronic car?) see, ppl are always writing stuff like that, like oh in the future there will be flying spaceships for daily transport, robots to do evth for us, ermm multi-vitamin capsules for food and so on, that kind of thing. but i think wad we reallie ought to write abt, is the fact that towards the end of this century, we may well be choking in huge amounts of air pollution every single day, enduring monthly floods, either shivering in extreme chill or sweating buckets in extreme heat(depending on where u are), and of course, not forgetting blaming every other country but our own for the problematic climatic conditions.

or it can be ALOT WORSE.

how beautiful.

fine so maybe i'm very negative. but that is my outlook. and if we dont do anyth abt it, fast, we can just all forget abt the end of the century even coming at all.

+ liquidified + at 6:34 PM Friday, February 11, 2005

hello all. this year i had a beautiful chinese new year and birthday.

thanks to so many.

first on list, two of the specials, ellen neo and teo zhixuan.
hey u two! :D the hamster is BEAUTIFUL. (: and trust u guys to name it first w/o even consulting me! haha if it's any other name it'd be alright, but it's -----!!!! ack. lol ok, the name i shant disclose here. anyways, i love you guys alot alot alot and tuesday was one of the best days of my life, even though the time was rather short. u guys make my days and i hope we go on forever. i know we will. (:

and thanks to all others who made my day too yeah. like i said, this year's chinese new year and birthday was great. :D the last two days have been a whirlwind of new year festivities and lots and lots of fun(plus some boring parts here and there but it doesnt matter), and OH lots and lots of FOOD!! charis quipped, "isnt it amazing how, at new year, we do nothing but sit around in different houses and eat and eat and eat and eat?" haha yeah. my cousin's husband observed me eating my fifth kueh pieti in a row and he was like, "whoa this girl, live to eat eh." hahah! and that is the truth. x)

haha gave weilin her present today. happy be-earlied birthday weilin! have a great sunday! :D and yes i like the 'snowy' card myself too, but it's yours to keep! haha. love.

ooh i like counting angbao money! xD

+ liquidified + at 5:53 PM Thursday, February 03, 2005

haha ada's entry abt bio practicals made me laugh! wad nonsense abt dissecting pig's hearts, setting benches on fire, and breaking a million test-tubes/boiling tubes/whatever eh? hahah!

replies!

weilin:
ERM dont flatter urself! since when have i said u colour my life? hahaha... alright anyway, i'm excited abt the gift! :D and yes, jap lessons are ever so nice, and i know u're going to say, "it's bcos of me!" haha RIGHT. oh and i think mengtian has nice eyes and hair! :) she makes a nice seatmate too. (: and u know why ur name is in purple rite. :)

ellen:
COURSE i'm excited. i couldnt be even more!! hahaha... I CANT WAIT FOR TUESDAY. (: i love you you make my days. :)

i never get tired of saying that. (:

school's been good lately. oh have i said how much i adore pokie! she is SUCH a darling. like the apple of anyone's eye. i love such lovable people. haha.

+ liquidified + at 10:54 PM Monday, January 31, 2005

today for bio, we DISSECTED SOME BLOODY PIG'S HEART. and bloody as in literally(i seldom use that word in its alternative meaning anyway). arghargharghargh. like it was alllll grossss and smelly(u know that stale blood smell?). and it was quite disgusting.

but it was interesting! haha. i've been waiting for years for this day. ok i sound like some psycho. but i've been anticipating dissecting lessons since primary school. in fact that is why i took up bio in the first place. haha ok maybe that's not the only reason. but dissection is reallie fun! yucky but fun. x)

non-bio students, eat ur hearts out.

haha and ohhh notice the pun. :)

and u want to guess wad i had for dinner today?

that's right. the same thing. THE EXACT SAME THING. oh oh oh.

ok and this is the horrible part: i enjoy the dish.

i mean i reallie do. pigs' hearts taste reallie good. oh and have i mentioned so do their brains and blood? i am not kidding. u ppl shld try chicken's hearts too. they dont sell pigs' brains and blood in singapore anymore though. :/

oh man the things asians gobble up. it's disgusting, come to think of it. but some are so yummy!! by the way, pig's heart when it's cooked looks very different from when it's in the bio lab, so like during dinner today i was telling mum abt the dissection, then suddenly she blurts out that the innocent-looking dish on the table was the exact same thing i saw in the lab earlier during the day.

alright anyway, stayed back today to do half the cny costume. siew luan's going to wear it. i cant wait to see the end-product! :D

+ liquidified + at 10:34 PM Thursday, January 27, 2005

a thought:

we are all hypocrites in one way or another.

DYA? EYA.

well - .

anyways, finally the day has come when there are no more tests. FOR THE TIME BEING THAT IS. arrghh. over with chinese and both maths for this week. well at least there's one or two days before the studying resumes. ss and amaths next week. here we go again. sigh. :( sec four life this is.

was rather high during assembly period today! haha we just went absolutely zany. me, huis, weilin, hauyin, YILIBAISHA(lol!), charmine, alana, siew luan. oh man. :D though i kind of zoned out twds the end. was thinking of ~ .

xuan is right. such things do colour my life. (:

i wanna go cycling on saturrrrdayy...

+ liquidified + at 6:54 PM Saturday, January 22, 2005

charis is planning her trip to usa in june, after her grad and before her work starts. well it's all very well and it definitly sounds very exciting but i have mixed feelings. i want to talk to someone.

anyway, lots of her friends want europe but she doesnt want to go there again. sigh sometimes i wish that she isnt always the high-flyer in the family, that i dont get all these mixed feelings whenever such things happen. sometimes i wish i was the older one. i dunno how to put this but i guess i'm the only one who knows exactly how i feel right now.

bitter. bitter. and yet i love her and look up to her. she's always the one, the so successful, so stylish one. the high-flyer one. the independent, easy-going, beautiful one. the one to whom opportunities seem to just appear at her doorstep, and yet i know she seeks them out herself. and that's precisely why i look up to her bcos she is so good at finding opportunities for herself, at seeking out new worlds, at all these.

and yet she is such a vicious bitch. i hate her for wad she did and said to me, like just a minute ago.

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

+ liquidified + at 1:46 PM Wednesday, January 19, 2005

MISS NEO: argh argh argh we're with each other even less and less now. this reallie sucks. but then u already knew that. and u also know i miss you too dont you. oh well. haha sorry abt the "three reduced to one" thing! it's just that i dont feel like telling the other two already. anyway this one thing is big enough! haha. ladida. i want - . hehheh. :)

oh no i am subconsciously imitating val's way of typing "-" over those ahemahem stuff. haha oops.

bio test today; chem test yesterday. well actually there isnt much to say abt sec four life. i mean we all know how it's like. with multiple tests every week, and constant drills of this-is-your-crucial-year-so-pls-pull-up-ur-socks all the time(eg miss fazi today, who said sthg like, "i dunno, maybe it hasnt reallie sinked in yet, but this is a very impt year for you and blah blah"), and so on. well yeah the work has certainly started to pile up.

jogged with weilin today during recess, cos she had to make up for her morn jog of last week. hmm haha we realise there're quite a number of loopholes in this morn jog make up thing haha.

i think i should play my piano more often. i think it misses me. :)

the feeling the feeling. ellen neo! (: